Happiness at last

I have never been so happy in my life.  Elizabeth loves me! she really does, she conceded that she would marry me before I even asked.  I find myself now giddish like a schoolgirl waiting for her date to prom to show up.  I am absolutely filled with delight and Lizzy and I are sure to live out the rest of our lives together.


Relationship Status: MARRIED!!!!

Lady Catrine /:

Lady Catherine knows not what she's talking about.  That she has the nerve to tell Elizabeth her "duties" irks me beyond belief.  Somethimes, I want to kill the woman.  I surely hope that this doesnt have a negative effect on elizabeth or her thinking she isn't good enough for me which certainly isnt the case.

Should I or not?

Its difficult and I often find myself pondering over the questionof weather or not to ask Elizabeth to marry me again or not.  My heart aches longingly for her and I so desparately want to be with her but the thought of another rejection makes me want to hurl.  I'm just not sure what I would do if I heard no again.

She knows

Well it looks as though Mrs. Gardiner has spilt the beans as far as my paying off Wickhams debt goes.  Though, i'm not sure how long meant to keep it a secret.  The truth is that I did it because of my dire love for Elizabeth.  I tried to play her cool at first but now im tring to show all the affection i'm capable of.  I do hope she can see that i'm really a nice guy.

A cleaver man

A cleaver man indeed is Mr. Wickham.  Playing the poor Bennet family because of their (excuse my saying so) stupid daughter.  She hadn't the witt to see what was really going on.  And on top of it all,  Mrs. Bennet is happy.  Mr. Wickham has cleared his debt and is now "stealing" money from the Bennets in a form of blackmail in order for them to keep their good name.

Word to the wise

A word to the wise Mr. Collins:

You have no stature. You think your someone but your not.  You think your something but your not.  Your a nobody, and before you think about insulting the Bennet family, you should look in the mirror and see the pitiful man who stands before you.

Irony

Ohh the irony of the situation reguarding Mrs. Bennet.  However, I need not make too much fun of her for her daughter I am in love with.  How can she be mad at her daughter for eloping with Wickham?  As far as I have seen, her life long goal has been to marry off all of her daughters.  And then, she has the audacity to blame Colonal Forester.  A bit ironic if you ask me...

All my fault

What was I thinking.  I should certainly exposed wickham when I had the chance and shamed him out of the town.  Now, he has the ability to bring shame to the family of my true love.  There is no one to blame but myself, this is all my fault.

Early Exit

I blame myself.  It is all my fault.  Why I felt some sort of loyalty to Wickham I do not know.  I should have told everyone the truth about what a real slime ball he is. Now there is a chance that thee entire Bennet family may look foolish because of me.  I certainly hope not though I do not doubt it. /:

New Friends

Well I am, believe it or not, quite happy to say that my sister and lover have found good friends in each other.  Elizabeth, through my sister and others, is really starting to see the good in me.  I am both nervous and excited for the future and all that it may hold.  However for now, I am happy with saying that I brought together two new friends.

My House keeper

It is good to know that I do have some allies in this world.  I used to think that maybe no one knew the real me but I suppose some do.  I was delighted to hear all of the complements that my dear friend bestowed upon me.

Visiting home

I decided to return home shortly to prepare my home for some friends and my sister and guess who i just happen to run into.  She blushes and acts disgusted to see me, a little too disgusted, as if shes afraid if she doesn't act that way her true feelings will come out. hehehe (;

Visiting my House

Well I hear that Elizabeth has agreed to a tour of my estate, no doubt on account of my not being there, but deep down, I know she wants to see me.  Lets get real, she misses me and wants to see me but cant admit it.  Well maybe just maybe you'll see me in the near future miss Elizabeth!

Very Interesting

Things are peculiar indeed.  How the tides certainly do seem to be turning!  Elizabeth rejected me and I sensed that partly it may be because of Wickham but now her sister has married him and Lizzy refuses to see him? My dear Elizabeth is someone falling in love with me??? (;

Departing

Well it is time to say my goodbyes to Rosings.  It has been quite a pleasurable experience filled no doubt with many mistakes.  What's done is done and now it is time to put the past behind us. Farewell all.

The Letter

Well now I have given Elizabeth the letter.  I went through much debate in my head of weather or not to tell her about Wickam.  I suppose she should know.  And as far as things with Jane go, I think she knows those two weren't meant for each other.  It wont be long before she starts crawling back!

a very bad day...or not?

I have thought often about which day may be the worst in my life. I have decided that this day was one of the better in my life.  Marrying Elizabeth may have caused me great failure in the years to come.  So, I thank you Elizabeth, for correcting my momentary lapse in judgement.